The Biggest Loser?

Warning: Spoiler

So I am sure that all of you who watched The Biggest Loser tonight are picking your chins up off the floor and still wrapping your mind around it all. I know I am!

Temptation:
Paul was stupid for sharing that bit about his calories and deserved to lose the challenge for that. The black team seems unstoppable. I don't know what Mallory was thinking eating on the temptation but I don't think that it made a huge difference in the outcome.

Weigh-in:
Again, the black team seems unstoppable, both in weight loss and in strategy. I think they will go far but will be eliminated as soon as they fall below the yellow line because others will see them as a threat.

The shock was the low low numbers compared to what Biggest Loser history would suggest should happen on week 2. Zero, 1, 2, & 3 lb losses seem so low. The trainers looked shocked and I am sure took a lot of responsibility for it because it wasn't just one or two people but the majority. In everyday life these would be good weeks for weight loss. I have a feeling though that if I was in the same situation I would be very frustrated putting in all that work and being away from family and friends for smaller numbers or no numbers at all. Bob said that maybe Jillian and him don't have the same magic when put together and maybe he is right. Who knows. I am already looking forward to next week to see if those numbers go back up. We will see, right?

I was also shocked that the brown team was sent home. I really liked them and I thought that they really had their hearts in the game. The only encouraging part is seeing how great they looked in the follow-ups. Good for them! I am sure that they will look amazing at the finale.

The Last Straw

So this story was on a friend's blog:

"After the (WW) meeting there was a new-member Intro, in which the director-in-training who had lost a total of 102 lbs herself (in just 2.5 years) gave each of the new members a little red straw. She told us that it represented the "last straw" for us. She wanted us to try and narrow down or even pinpoint the last straw in our lives. What had finally pushed us over the edge and to the decision to do something about it (and then find weight watchers)."

This go me to thinking, what was my last straw.....

I have blogged about my crazy binge and my all out loss of control but was that the last straw?

I don't think so.

I was watching a comercial for the upcomming Biggest Loser season that is starting tonight. They are doing a couples challenge. One of the ladies was shown saying that she wanted to lose the wight before her kids knew that she was fat.

I felt a pit in my stomach and my eyes started welling up.

THAT'S ME!!!

I don't want my daughter to ever see me as fat!

She is a baby right now and show unconditional love and doesn't care about what I look like but I dread this current path that I am on. I am embarassed of myself and so I am sure at some point she would be embarassed too. That is almost guaranteed. I want to be an active participant in her live and have her excited about that. And sure most kids are mildly embarassed by their parents but I don't want it to be because of my weight.

So that is the last straw. It broke the camel's back. I am committed.

And tonight is the first episode of The Biggest Loser. I think that I am going to tune in for some extra inspiration.